Boudoir Marathon

Alright Clarksville/Ft. Campbell Friends/Wives, I Have Exciting News!! My Wonderfully Talented Photographer & Friend Justine Renee Photography Is Coming To Nashville To Do A Boudoir Marathon!! You Can't Miss This!! What A Great Welcome Home Present For Your Men! Or Even Just A Nice Little Surprise For Them While They Are Still Gone! Message Me Or Justine If You Are Interested & Want To Know Prices & Details

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Dear Congress,

Thank you for screwing up my husbands pay, you really have great timing. Since you are only going to pay him HALF of his paycheck, should he only have to work HALF as hard in Afghanistan or maybe only HALF the time out there? I think that’s about fair, but he is better than you. He will continue to work just as hard if not harder, just to prove that he is not HALF-assed like you. He can’t do things out there only HALF way because his life is still in danger FULL time. Good job standing behind our troops. You guys suck.

Sincerely,
A Very Pissed Off Military Wife

Tumblr?

Usually I write about life or my husband or something to do with the military...but not tonight.

I recently joined Tumblr and I just don't know what I think of it. It's kind of fun to reblog and post all sorts of pictures and whatnot but I don't think I like it as much as I like my Blogger. I blog so I can write, so I can express my feelings through writing since face to face I am not very good at that. When I write I can pour my whole heart and soul onto a page full of words and I love that. Not to toot my own horn but I think I am pretty good at writing also. I've noticed that not very many people on Tumblr write a lot. They will post small quotes here and there and maybe a paragraph or two but that's it.

With that being said, I am going to continue writing here on Blogger and just use my Tumblr to play with. I will include the link here if anyone wants to check me other stuff out. There are more pictures and music and random stuff there. If anyone else has a Tumblr let me know and I will follow you :)

http://moderndaysuperwoman.tumblr.com/

I hope everything is have a good week so far <3

Taking A ME Day

I am officially taking the day off of life today. It is just one of those days I want to be alone. Not because I am sad or lonely or depressed but because I just feel like reflecting. So many people say not to dwell on the past and to forget about it but sometimes I think it can be a good thing. Your past is what makes you who you are, it is what helps you make the decisions you make today.

Today I am thinking a lot about my past: experiences I have had, people I have dated, places I have been, and friends I have had. I am thankful for the things I have been through, good and bad. They have made me a better person in the long run. I wouldn’t be where I am, who I am, or married to who I am married to if it weren’t for some not so great decisions I made in my past. There are things I have done that I am not proud of but I am glad I did them, I learned from it. There are also things I have done that I am extremely proud of, things that make me realize I sometimes forget how strong I am. I have loved and lost and fought for what I wanted. Sometimes I wonder why things worked out the way they did and what went wrong in relationships and friendships. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to change the way my life turned out at all, I’m just reflecting today.

There are things about my past that I miss at times but I know they are in my past for a reason so I am going to keep them that way. Plus I love the way my life is. I have a great family, some wonderful friends, and the most amazing husband. And I wouldn’t trade any of that for anything in the world.

So with that said, I am going back to my “Me” night. A candle lit bubble bath sounds amazing. And tomorrow I will go back to trying to organize my life and all the crazyness in it.

Don't Lose Hope

Relationships are not always easy but throw in a crappy phone connection, the occasional email, and about 7,000 miles and now you're at a whole new level of hard, borderline impossible. Don't lose hope though. I know it is easier said than done but trust me, true love can make it through anything, even war. Love can survive weeks, months, even years apart, and it can stretch over mountains, countries, and oceans. It won't be easy though, it takes work and patience, but it will be worth it in the end.

224 Days....

I swear the iPhone has an app for EVERYTHING. I recently downloaded an app called "Doing Time", it tells me exactly how many days Alex has been gone and how many days until he is supposed to come home. This application and I have a love/hate relationship, depending on my mood that day. Sometimes I look at it and it makes me sad to think my husband, the love of my life, the person I want to spend everyday with, has been gone for so many days. Other times I look at it, see how many days left until he is coming home, and I can't help but smile. The number keeps getting smaller and smaller.

The big number is what I can't stop thinking about tonight. Has he really been gone 224 days? Sometimes it feels likes just yesterday that I said goodbye to him and other times it feels like he has been gone for years. Those are the days that I can't remember what he smells like or what it feels like to touch him. The days that I feel like he is a million miles away instead of thousands. Today I am looking at the number as an accomplishment though. Even though he is thousands of miles away, the last 7 1/2 months have brought us closer together than we have ever been. We have been thrown a lot of curve balls but we have always managed to come out on top and in the process we have grown a lot as a couple, as a team. He is going through so much out there and yet he still manages to go out of his way to be there for me and help me with the things I am not able to do on my own out here. I love the way we communicate with each other, we don't yell nor do we fight, we just talk. We have an amazing relationship.

The last 224 days have been a personal accomplishment for me as well. I have grown so much and have finally figured out who I am. I have learned how to stand my ground and how to be strong, who my real friends are and how to be a real friend, but most of all I have learned what's important in life and what is not. There have been times where I have thought I couldn't make it any longer in this deployment, but I have. I looked up on Google the top 10 most stressful life events and in the last 7 1/2 months I have been through most of them: moving, loss of a loved one, wedding planning/getting married, and family problems. That's just naming a few of them. Although deployment wasn't included in that list, I feel that it should be. So to say the least, my life has not been easy but I have managed to survive with the help of some great friends, a wonderful family, and an amazing husband.

I look at the last 224 days of my life and I am proud of what I have accomplished and who I have become. So thank you. Thank you to those of you who have stood by me, supported me, been my shoulder to cry on, and helped me up when I couldn't get up on my own. You mean more to me than you could ever imagine. You know who you are :)